Last night the American Gothic cathedral that is Richard Brautigan visited me in my sleep. With the enchantment of his words he turned me into a red curry and carried me across the Pacific Ocean on a banana leaf.
Together we walked around the Haight Ashbury. Well, I walked, he floated. We both tried our darndest to love the tourist trash that now own that sacred ground. He took me back in time, showed me his apartment, where he worked, where he refused to do anything but what his talent demanded. I understood.
We walked and floated in silence, the silence of ourselves. At first I was a little disappointed, being in the company of the great writer I was expecting to see words glistening in the California sun like trout in a stream, occasionally leaping into the air for the sheer delight of jumping. I would have been happy if he'd just shown me a sign, the words "trout stream this way". I guess I was hoping to impress him, surface like a whale and blow him away with a salty spout of cleverness, but I felt that no words was part of the lesson.
He showed me a woman so beautiful that she caused traffic accidents wherever she went. I understood.
As morning approached his words turned my blood into wine, he carried me home in a holy grail. I awoke with the taste of wine on my lips, and the only words that he spoke all night in my mind.
"Kent Parkstreet, you are loved."
I understood. Trout stream this way.
Parkstreet.
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i started to ask "did you really dream this"...then i realized...it doesn't matter. these words are so beautiful that they brought tears to my eyes and a lump in my throat. (i think the trout leapt in this one my friend) and sometimes we just need to hear those words "you are loved". blog on dear Kent...blog on!
ReplyDeleteI recently remembered how Brautigan affected me when I first read him, his beauty. Many long considered ideas and some faith in myself are beginning to gel, I can feel something and important coming together in my life. It feels good.
ReplyDeleteThanks again for your support and ebcouragement Suzette, it really does help.